oh my goodness, i had lunch with Robby today!
he called me this morning and asked me what i was doing this afternoon. since my first client cancelled, i had a little bit of time so i dropped by his house and took him and his girlfriend out for lunch.
oh my goodness
my boy ... my boy.
it went really well. he is not as big as kelly said ... only [i]only[/i]6'4". he's beautiful tho even if he does have four tattoos and three earrings. he's still my little boy.
and he is so tired. everything that he said ... even when he was telling me the trouble his is and was in ... tells me how tired he is of the life he has chosen. he wants out. he wants to change.
i told the Lord that i didn't want to see him until He had his heart and although Robby did not say as much, i believe He has. He's so prime for getting straight. at least i think so.
i've been praying that the Lord would heighten my discernment meter and not allow the enemy to dull my senses or keep me in denial. but we had such a good time. his little girlfriend is really sweet, they seem to get along really well. she seems straight and a good kid and was very respectful with me.
i brought the camera with me but didn't take any pictures. i regret it right now, but i'll wait until sunday when we meet with Kelly.
when i dropped him back off at where he is staying we stood outside the car and talked. he didn't seem to want to let me go and every time i tried to go toward the car he would ask another question or say something else.
finally i took his face in my hands and looked deep into his eyes and said "thank you". he asked why and i said how thankful i was that he contacted me and came out for lunch and that i have missed him soooo much. his eyes filled up with tears.
so i asked him if i could have a hug and he opened his arms wide and said sure. i told him i loved him and he said i love you too mom.
it was so difficult to leave.
since i left him i have had the most amazing peace that only God can give so deep in my heart. i'm grieved at the trouble he is in but so thankful that i believe God has captured his heart again and no matter what we have to go through in the future, it will be God's plan and He will keep Robby safe.
i'm so overwhelmed that our God is such a great God!